Sitting at the table with love and light incarnate was darkness in conflict. Judas had already been prompted to betray the Lord.
READ JOHN 13:18-30
The Darkness: Sitting at the table with love and light incarnate was darkness in conflict. Judas had already been prompted to betray the Lord. (I say “the” Lord because Judas could never claim Christ as “his” Lord personally based on what Christ knew of him as quoted in John 6:64, 70; 13:10-11) Judas had tasted the fruits of fellowship with Christ (Hebrews 6:4-6) but had not given himself to Christ. This is not the condition of a free agent but of prey. A man can never exist apart from allegiance to either Christ or the anti-Christ in whatever form that takes.
Judas had occupied the seat of honor at the table, on the left hand of Christ, had his belly full of the ancient Passover meal and the new Passover communion, his feet washed by the Servant Master, Jesus, and yet he remained unswayed to abandon his destructive course of action. It is when Christ offers the bread to Judas that there is clarity and his journey to the dark side was complete: the darkness had finally moved in to where it was already welcome.
Oh to have a special prescription of glasses with the ability to view spiritual and non-spiritual activity simultaneously – to be able to see Jesus extend grace in this choice morsel of bread, watch Judas extend his hand to accept the bread but not the grace; and then to watch in the moment the transfer of food occurs to see satan or his minions enter into Judas and fully establish their fortress from which they could operate with no more conflict! I remember watching the demons drag of Carl in the movie “Ghost” and see a similar scene here except here, Judas opens the door and welcomes them in.
Then when Judas goes out, John adds, “…and it was night” Judas is in His natural element for that supernatural element is now personified in Judas…as natural. His going out is also his walking away from Christ and running to his true master with conviction and loyalty.
The Light: Look again at Jesus in 13:21. He is troubled in spirit. No doubt this is due to what He must face, the agony of body and soul. But do you suppose that part of His anguish here deals with what He knows will happen to Judas? Throughout this entire meal the Light never flickers, never wanes, but burns steady and bright – so bright against the backdrop of demonic treachery from a “friend” of Christ.
Who in their right mind would not choose to consider their life under the control of One who, as God, would still hold out an invitation to a child of satan to come in from the darkness? Who would not desire to consider the transfer of allegiance from satan to a Savior of such love and grace as to offer hope at the same moment that a demonic partnership was being struck?
Jesus’ persistence with love and light gives hope to us all that there is no sin too bad or strong that will cause the divine light of grace to ever be extinguished (John 1:5). The door will never be closed to the Father’s home in this age of grace. We must deliberately, defiantly, walk away from His grace and in this our destiny is sealed. Yet none can accuse Jesus of withdrawal. That Light, so committed to the perfect will of God enough to tell Judas, “What you are about to do, do quickly”, is the same Light so perfect in love that it would offer grace at the last moment. As the light fades from Judas’ life, like the light of a candle that one blows on to extinguish, in contrast, the Light of Christ burns brightly and reminds us that there is a God greater than the darkness around and within us. There is a God who still offers the most heinous of sinners the way home.